Why did I stay so long? – 13 years. Because I loved working with that team. It was a rare thing – A real team who each day learn’t from each other, continuously supporting one another.
But there was something I couldn’t change – We grew into each other and lost touch with the outside. I wanted to open us up, expose us to the diverse and rapidly changing world, to alternative perspectives and views. I failed, hierarchy or fear got in the way, I’m not sure.
And then I got a taste of what I’d been missing – Working directly with a client who I could sit down with, we’d discuss each others needs with no proxy. We built a supportive relationship, and learn’t from each other and built some software that surprised everyone, there was no going back
And I realised that there is a bigger team out there – So I’m off freelancing, to find the freedom to work with different people each day, and learn from different people each day. Developers, Designers and most importantly opened minded people with needs that I can meet. A team that continually changes, diversifies and grows.
Self-organisation without the boundaries – how’s that going to work out?
Diary of a ScrumMaster 
“Developers, Designers and most importantly opened minded people with needs that I can meet. A team that continually changes, diversifies and grows.”
Truly a dream come true in the mind of this Scrum Master. I just stumbled upon your blog and read a few posts that made me sigh with relief. I’ve been working with a team transitioning for the last year (as a new SM) and am taking on a second team now. It’s much more difficult than I first suspected, but comforting to know the struggles are normal.